I have a lot on my mind. I've been thinking about my life and how I've changed. I used to be a sizable flirt, not the biggest but if I liked you, you knew it. I used to be very romantic and from those I was involved with I'd receive heart fluttering admiration back. I was wondering what happened to teenage love? Does it grow up with me into the adult love I have now? Is it more mature, as I am?
Because I feel that my love disappeared from my personality. I am in love in new ways now than I ever was. My love now is distinguished and chooses the deserving party that will not be a great leap or chance. And I miss it. I miss the gamble on someone fun and crazy. I miss silly 'put your heart out there' actions. I miss praising someone so deeply that I felt I would die without them.
Sure things are better now that I know where's better to put my emotions, but where's the fun? I suppose I have to liven it up all on my own, because I've grown out of my childish ways.
When I was a child I played with toys, but when I grew up I set aside childish things.
